Driving home yesterday after an especially productive day in the office, I noticed (as I often do) the fine weather and beautiful scenery in my hometown of Frederick. I was excited to see my family and hear about their day. I planned out dinner in my head and thought about the week’s schedule. I listened to an audiobook, downloaded from the library. I thought about my recent workouts and my plan for fitness for the week. I felt calm and peaceful and connected with my life, exactly as it is.
I have not always felt this way.
For much of my teen and adult life, I felt compelled to leave whatever life I was living for something better. I think I was trying to escape myself. While I remain interested in self-improvement, I believe that my most profound progress has come through diving deeply inside my existence as it is–in seeking contentment, not distraction.
Yesterday was a moment where I felt that connection deeply. I will keep working to seek those moments. The habits I am developing (I cleaned out my car as part of my December Declutter project and focus on acceptance as part of my meditation) are part of allowing me to feel that content more often.